The question that haunts the God Seeker

It is interesting that the word quest, as in spiritual quest, so easily becomes the word question.

Questioning every aspect of life — from mundane matters to profound spiritual beliefs — is what keeps the human mind engaged.

And the question that transcends all questions, in my opinion, is and always will be: Is there God? Not a God, but God, purely and simply (although hardly simple), God.

Whether we admit it or not, that question, if not always in our cluttered minds, is certainly in our hearts.


The agnostic and to some extent the atheist will say the question is of zero interest to them. Their minds are made up — there is no God. But that kind of arrogance is as annoying as the crazed fervor of some evangelists.

The non- and never-believers want evidence that God exists. Faith isn’t enough for them.

But such evidence is currently, and possibly as impossibly unfathomable and unknowable as radio waves were to the cavemen of a million years ago. Yet radio waves and other “miracles” in the electromagnetic spectrum were in fact ultimately revealed over time — as unknown others may also be discovered in an impossible universe where, I suggest, anything is possible.


If there is God, then all is well with life — and death. But if there is no God we are all lost. Life, in the end — even though we may have had a “good life” — becomes an empty shell, a cosmic fraud, a godless dirty trick. If that is the case, for one thing, the main thing I would say, we will never be reunited or in communion in some unknown Godly and mystical way with our lost loved ones.

We will mourn them for the rest of our lives and stubbornly live in the hope and prayers we will be with them — again, in that unknown and unknowable way — but if that hope is false and all our prayers are based on a diabolical delusion inflicted upon us by a flawed theology and a Christian concept that is contradicted by history and science and common sense, then we are all doomed to oblivion and the nothingness that existed before we were born, when we knew nothing, experienced nothing, were aware of nothing because we didn’t exist and were in fact nonexistent.


Therefore, in order to survive the tragedies in life, one creates or at least imagines a spiritual place or space, a realm, a supernatural sphere, a dimension, and as-yet undiscovered wave-length within a universe of 200 billion galaxies — call it Heaven if you want — where one may, however remotely, but hope-beyond-hopefully, find the spirit, the soul if you will, of lost loved ones; because even if one doesn’t believe in God, one believed and continues to believe in our loved ones — whether they be wife, husband, soulmate, companion, child, sister, brother, best friend, whomever.

They were real. But now they are dead and no longer real, one can only hope that they are surreal and therefore spiritually communicable. But if that is not the reality, by which of course in this context I mean the surreality, then all is lost and emptiness and meaningless awaits us all.

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8 thoughts on “The question that haunts the God Seeker

  1. I like your words here. In the absence of the people whom we’ve shared a life with and we have loved or have influenced our lives so much in whatever aspect, one cannot but wonder “and now what; where are they?”. And then it leads to the question of the probable existence of another dimension, and of God, or a God that brings meaning to it all. I often wonder “but what type of God if there should be one?”. It was nice reading you. Warm regards.

  2. Yesterday, Sir, i asked a friend of mine if he remembers his first image in life. This is a question i like to ask a lot. He described a panoramic scene that came to his mind, but he couldn’t see himself in the scene, which surprised me. He said he might had been 4-5 (not sure). Then i asked him : Where is you as self, the very first years of your life? Despite the fact you were present for your parents and the rest of the people, you have no idea about yourself as presence. It is like you didn’t exist for yourself, an oblivion, a nothing. “. He was thinking of this, and he was laughing. He couldn’t answer. Not able to give an answer, not even one as the following : “I was with a God waiting on the backstage for the camera to start recording”.

    On the other hand, i’m thinking what if the equation works both ways. We are alive and we have no idea about our existence for a few years. We die and we wake up ! I know it sounds crazy, and much comforting.

    Despite the fact i don’t like the Gods, dear Sir, i avoid to put a label for thyself and say i’m this or that. Because i’m still searching. Not for the Gods, though. For some things that i have a feeling are much more different from what we were told and taught. For things that occur here and there and we have no answers for them. And what has helped me a bit is to avoid using a few labels like “natural” “supersomething” or whatever. Because all may belong to the same environment (maybe not).

    I won’t forget a comment of yours, though, under a post of mine, about what reality does. And not only this one. Take care, dear Sir.

  3. Your topsy-turvy concept of life — “We are alive and we have no idea about our existence for a few years. We die and we wake up!” — is fascinating and makes me wonder about that. As I often say, anything’s possible in this unfathomable and endless universe. We humans know as much about life and death etc as the caveman of a million years BC knew about gamma rays. (I’m trying to remember my comment “about what reality does.”)

  4. Actually, the correct wording of my reply should have been, Your concept of a topsy-turvy life. — not your topsy-turvy concept, because it is life that is topsy-turvy (in your example) not your concept, which is really an interesting notion. I just wanted to clear up my misplacing of words.