VOICE IN THE WILDERNESS
You pray in your own way which is not the customary way not the rosary way but nonetheless you pray to become imbued with a spirituality to become captivated held captive if necessary by a spiritualism that would hold the possibility of being reunited if not physically obviously not physically then metaphysically with your wifes spirit her essence her psychic presence her courage her mind her heart but the Good Lord in his infinite wisdom (surely you jest sir) or should I say the Bad Lord in his spiteful revenge (oh you will go to hell for that sir) a cosmic sadist so to speak as did speak or rather wrote CS Lewis playing Devils advocate in his brutally honest book A Grief Observed this invisible Force that is not With You this Phantom this Almighty Ghost Who Doesnt Walk denies you imbuement in both the natural world and the otherworldly supernatural world
For some godless diabolical reason sir you are unimbueable
At this point you may seek enlightenment from enlightened souls like Mitch Teemley who I humbly acknowledge sometimes reads my posts or from the intricate mind and caring heart of a blogger known simply as Dot who recently bugged out of the blogosphere to seek a Reunion With Silence
But expect none of the above to be forthcoming sir for I do believe you are expecting too much both in spiritual imbuement and enlightenment and I would furthermore advise you to cease overreaching and content yourself with the memories sir the memories of S
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